yesterday was a kinda high-tide day in my head.... cause day before was cool. i had jus started to feel that i had reached 'average' when..... someone said i made a wrong decision..AGAIN. :(
i hate it when they seem to be bothered like this. i know, m not supposed to make everyone happy... but i cant b making everyone sad all the time either.
hmm... m hearing these words after a long time. may be it doesn't even matter to them so much and m just over perceiving it. the point is... when and why does 'the placement' get sooo very important. and the conditions to it. OMG :(
by now, i've wasted almost 2.5 days... wondering and doing nothing. infected mushrooms help a little while i write... after a huge round of back-to-back Sex and the City episodes..
i wonder how all this keeps going round and round... remarkably in past five years... it has been the same more or less. :-/
