again... i called

it wasnt (truth be told) the afternoon dream... it was the closeness between my friends (recently turned couple) lying right next to me... on a saturday afternoon... that cracked me...

and then the... another one of those tempting "tiffy" facebook activity..


i called. hung up. text-text-text and called again... conversation was a bunch. fatal incident as usual... made me slip the slippery track once again.... and here I'm... cant wait to call him or hear from him....

does he know it? -i wonder... he knows it and doesn't care? -i should rather believe that... is he at least happy about ... that we're talkin now? - he'll never tell.

a 'rebound' smoke

one drag..... after a month long break... and the moment has thrown me into the last year-same time....

it was hot... and sweaty... i was a pure smoker... classic milds-smoker... and i was bumping to-and-fro mumbai-pune....
the heat.. the lack of time.. and the lack of money.. and hence the lack of food...(an everythin else worldly) wasn't.. none.. at all a problem.

the heat was good.

the heat was soothing.. comfortable.. and intoxicating.

sourly missing the last years conjunct. 

Gunite farhat...

U said all those things that I hate my mother for saying to me.... But it still doesn't help me a lot... When it comes to hating you.... I dunno if I'm really that concerned about u or it's this atif song makin me think this way....

The love has remained in the head... For so long. It's not funny. This is child like love... Meant to pass. :( but not unless.. Truly lived for a while....  That was the idea... And I was kinda hoping that you knew... :-/

Mujhe toh teri latt lag gayi.. Lag gayi... Zamana kahe latt yeh galat lag gayi...

Ironically (ironical with respect to the image you carry/believe.. Of me).. I've always found myself waiting for something.. Always thought.. Someday .. I'll drink.. And dance on the streets.. And not care... And he'd b there to hold me. The time bloody never came... M three years from thirty... And biee... You complain why I din't wait... Could it be funnier??.... 

It's not a bunch of years.. A lifetime.. My youth.. Has gone by... Waiting. And ... Nobody understood. 

Bla!... This post is a verbal vomit. Bla bla... Thanks to #mumbaiindians #kingfisher #wankherelounge #ipl and all that jazz.. :)

Nite - nite... My soul-other!

Mmmuahh

The comeback! - Pune *psy*

Fudge returned to pune for the first time... after 3 months of having posted out (to udhampur).

and as always.... "The Drama".....


PS: Drafted on 25 Nov 2011

on Mridul's B'day and m away in Mumbai....

what is this restlessness? Nothing is going wrong.. And m jus indulged in my own judgements

701 - Here's to Toshi! (a piece of my heart)

............ hmmmmm
the two obstacles.. the stupid chairs are out of my room... and the cute harry-potter clock has found the wall-rest behind it.
I thought i would call Toshi up here.. to come n stay with me.. only to discover that she has no contact now. The last time I spoke to her, she was upset about one of her close frens who committed suicide. And the weird thing is, when i spoke to Ke' bout this... she told me about another such incident having happened in her neighborhood.
Is it that common? Many rockin chik-celebs have chosen this extremity in the past. What a darn loss.. :(

Just the thought of losing Toshi makes my eyes wet. I know she is fine. She is the strongest girl I've known in my life. I can't wait to hear from her.


I resumed to my fanaticism for SATC today, after a long break, as I watch SATC- The Movie. Carrie busted Mr. Big out of her life, jus like that.

I walk in my spacious apartment with a hey-zie and feel like being somebody like her.



PS: Written sometime in Apr 2011......................

Palak wins Roadies X

so many people must be in awe....
Palak... She was the girl we 'blaaaahh-ed' upon when Shikh was starting with modeling. So much for mis-judgements....
I've come to realize one thing... There cannot b a general.. universally accepted right and wrong..... It's all about time.. place.. choices... desires... and so many thousands such other variables... There is so much to comprehend a person.. in account of his situation.. time.. past experiences... and this list can go on too.

I just wonder how focused one can be.. or has to be... to be a spot-on star.... or was it jus luck and destiny.
Whatever said and done... that was some passion. some sorta hang-up. some commitment and some 'Zidd'..

I like what Raghu has created... I like how they twist and turn and bring forward such people. "Roadies" probably... one of the very few brand-names well created in India... specially for my generation. And lucky are those who get to live it....

anywho... sulk-sleep time calls me back in this glorious weekend.
Gunite