As i open this website... after so long... trying to.. make it alive.. trying to "organize" it.... cant help but realize how many unfinished chapters.. incidences.. lessons.. memories and thoughts.. have gone by. And one can see it everywhere... the umpteen drafts in this very blog... many drafts in my gmail... scribblings in my iPhone notes... starred emails ... historical emails.... wishlists.. saved years ago... bunch of labels in the mailbox...
and i made a mark on.. each of them... to keep them in my to-do list.... but it never happened... god knows what was i thinking... even now when i look at those notes and drafts... i have no mind to finish them.. most of them i cant even recollect.
it just shows.. that... so many times.. i had a ruch.. of thoughts... may be decisions too... but i let them pass. i was too complacent to articulate it... or to face it!! i was busy making myself.... complacent... or just... the habit of self loathing.
uh... self-loathing!.... that's back after long... ha ha :)
and i made a mark on.. each of them... to keep them in my to-do list.... but it never happened... god knows what was i thinking... even now when i look at those notes and drafts... i have no mind to finish them.. most of them i cant even recollect.
it just shows.. that... so many times.. i had a ruch.. of thoughts... may be decisions too... but i let them pass. i was too complacent to articulate it... or to face it!! i was busy making myself.... complacent... or just... the habit of self loathing.
uh... self-loathing!.... that's back after long... ha ha :)
