Re-Burn..

i thought i lost it... i thought i came a long way leaving it behind....
but it is'nt that far behind.. it all still exists..
somewhere in the dark.. in that unfortunate loneliness..
and there's never a time i could overpower it.. it always rushes back.. only to make me fall back on my knees... and weaken me to the last drop of blood in my body... melts me down.
i don even know weather its good or bad.. i dunno if m read to deal with it again...
i dunno if i have the energy n power yet to get it right this time..
one single moment is enough to prove how much it still matters.. and all the memories of failure come bank n cling to my mind n soul.... :(
.................. if it still cud be legal for me to be a baby.. jus at times... it is difficult to be single
and i wont say it if i had to think straight. my 'straight' is not so right...
why i still firmly believe n want to think like a baby. its true afterall.
a reason for me.....>

they say that my zodiac is supposed to be good in intuitions...
so what i had followed for so long wast intuition.... experimentation-was it? Bad Decisions.. that's what it was.
i dunno how to conclude this post.. may be i never want to conclude any of this.
... typically I've also found a comfort in the pain.
L.o.L