Jyotsana..

toshi called today.. she lost a very good fren of hers'. it was a suicide. a brutal decision that she took for herself amidst a hopeless boy fren n unspportive parents.
as i finally spoke to her after such long time, i was also concluding in my head how past few years have been pointlessly wrong. made blunderous decisions back to back. its been some time that i've realised this and yet m not able to make anything better.
my thought process itself is not simplified, why wud the life be?
and i wanna believe that having toshi with me wud've made things better.

the 7th day im mumbai....

and it feels so lonely.... not a single soul i could see.. without a reason :(
..... having met most of my old frens.. still have this complex.. wonder n try to judge myself at every single moment.. still. this is immensly S.A.D.
although, the big picture bout this whole pre-mature mumbai stint does luk good... may be i've jus gone numb. i reach a new level of numbness everytime. and this time it is phenomenal. last nite cudnt have been better.. but i dunno what was lackin. it was the perfect definition of a memorable night.
i plan to be able to stay alone.. n still be blissful. difficult!.. too much of distraction on the plate.