that phone....

i dunno how n where i lost it... it has only been few hours i realized that its not there.. n m so restless :(
may be it wasnt supposed to go back to any other person.... hmm
perfect ending... to the surreal love -story. bullshit!! its gone :'(

New room. . New life.

It should be. . Cause that can b the only best difference that new room can bring. . C'mon. . Everyone has limited credits.
I see how vastly different people are. And. . Its not difficult to b amongst like people. Yet. . Its too tricky for me.
'Love & Other Disasters' is the best movie i've ever seen. . Loved the movie. . And loved the gay, mathew rhys the most.
How true it is in my life . . I always choose a difficult relationship. And best of frenship. . Only that
zzz. . Zzz

:'( anger. .

M very angry n upset today. . Feeling utterly bitter bout this life. .
:'(
my sister hates me cause i messed up her relationship. . I couldnt hate myself more. . After hating them for the same reason for so long. .
How deeply such small differences can impact. . :'(
:'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( . . . . . .
'tu hi meri hai sari zameen. . . . Chahe kahin se chaloon. . Tujh pe hi aa ke rukoon. . . . .
Tum mile. . . . :('
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# 404

My new room. . Its good. M aclimatized to it after today's evening. I like it.
. . . Fighting with unstablity, still. :'(
browsed through my entire history of guys. . Why does my relationship never last. . :(
or may b now i shud say. . Why do i even care. . Its definitely not meant for me. I shudnt b a part of anythin that has got anythin to do with 'family'.
Today. . Its only Ke' who feels little like my family. But i dunno. . When that mite as well go away. . . . :'(
my Beary is my family. . I kiss her and it gets me so emotional. . every single time and its so good. . :'( Cant even b away from her.
My roommates' indifference depresses me. . How could've i possibly hurt them. . It throws me into a big question mark. On n average. . Weekends' are still the more difficult hours to pass. . Yet i need sedation.
I don wanna screw my backlogs. . But m too scared.
Zzz zzz. . . . Zzz. .

Another Fool's Day

. . . Two years back i totally walked into something i knew, wasnt supposed to b. I knew it then. . Picked up a challenge against the destiny in the next eight months. . And then fought for it for another year n a half. .
Phh. . Wow. My Royalest of Failures.
. . . . . Nothing beats the destiny. Nothing!! :'( there's never a third way. .