Hmmm. . 2010

09. . Ends.
Everythin else that's called Life. . Still continues. M with mum-dad. . Actually. . M @ mum-dad's. . . The feelin of owning this place as Home. . I dunno why i've been tryin to run away from it. I wonder why m always tryin to become somethin Different. . I strongly wanna become not somebody from this home. M mostly superficial here. Why's that :'(
its not bad. Its good. I do know that it's all good. Mum dad. . Their love n care. . Its all precious. But somehow i don wan it. . No, that's not true. I DO want it. Then what's lackin?. .
Hmph. . There's so much i wan out of my life. M greedy. M lazy to achieve anythin. M a looser. I dunno how correct my opinions are. I don care bout people. M careless. M lost. M confused. I keep tryin to lie to myself. I often do n believe. I push myself to keep up with people i hate. . And then i fail. I desperately wanted somebody to accept me. . While i myself dont. :(

I feel better when m fat. I feel more comfortable when i occupy more space. So much so that i never feel the void of anyones absence :( pathetic. .
And i crib bout this also. . Crib Crib Crib and then jus shrug it away. . What a Pathetic Looser :( :(
gunite. . 2010. . Here u are. Let's c what u've got. La la laa laa. . Phh :P :(
i need a coffee. . . .
And a quiet long piyush hug. :( not possible :'(
gunite. . On is the first night of new year. . With Lot many more to come. . It'll bring loneliness and confusions in all kinds of shapes n sizes. More hatred from family. Yet more value for happiness. Or may be it'll b much better. .
Someone get me a coffee please :-@

;->B-)