time washed off some bitterness from the past... somethings made me stronger... somehow found myself and suddenly saw something just perfect. age 25 may not b that bad after all..
Farhat. A name that has been around the corner for bout two years .... He is family... and nothing ever had to establish this. I jus had always known....
recently as my life's cinema-scope was randomly panning.. it got stuck on him for a minute. may b it happened when we were trying to avoid all 'other' frames. And.. something sticky happened.
After a naive teenage and a lost early-twenties... there seems a time when things become much more clearer and better articulated. all the gyan and theories start making sense. Life is not as hopeless as we thought it was goin to be..... fortunately or unfortunately becomes controllable.
But these are those things which only losers would have discovered.. and that too pretty much after a series of failures. What about those of us who always lead a life of restrain ..
My life's aim, for a long time, has been to not become an aunty (m serious). but lately i've been close.. almost there.. actually pretty much there. life sometime goes faster than me............. anyway.. this blog is not about that. so.. coming back to this restrained lot of kids in my generation.
why??? why and how does that restrain crawl up till our adult independent lives?...and what an extent of diplomacy that we still pose to revere all the rock stars and youth icons who went all out to follow their passion... yet had huge failures in some or the other point in their lives.
i wonder why the definition of passion is so badly crippled in our minds... fuck the definition. is it even there in our list of priorities??? in the middle of career, money and social acceptance..'passion' (a different league altogether) doesn't stand a chance. Its like we replaced salt with a pizza and we feel rich.
anywho.... m sure none of us has ever reached an answer to this wonderment.... my concern is... my encounters with these kinds.
Farhat is a muslim. He has inadvertently been trained to not even think of marrying a girl outside the caste. Subconsciously he has accepted this imposition too. It is still ok to have a mindset or hangup... provided it's based on your experiences...
As times change.. ideas.. and their fundamentals become obsolete... Why do we lack the balls to rather have some gut-feel driven rules and fundamentals in place.
Phew!.. if only that cud happen.. it will save us so many heart brakes. :(
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