Sounds pathetic. . But. . How come It always meant so much to me. I know. . M sure. He'd b thinkin of me right now. Free from work. . Wife. . Break time. His Auro-time. Phh. . . I so much. . baby-d him all this while. Made myself AVAILABLE. Why. . Why the hell it doesnt mean anythin. . Why the hell is it stupid. . And why the hell m i sayin it here. . Only to laugh at it 2moro. Though, even 2moro i wont've answers to this. Yet v all would say 'this-is-how-it-always-happens'. Grhh. . How 'll i explain it to my kids? What the hell went wrong? :'(
i'll keep on tryin to tell myself. . Over n over again. . That its good for me. Then why the hell m i not likin it. M not lettin it cause any good to me. . Hufff! :(
it was supposed to b comfortable. . Not casual. I don've it anywhere anymore now. And even worse is, m gettin used to it. No, that's not what i want. I do want a relationship. Not the left over hurt n anguish bloody every fuckin time. Is nt there any Fuckin point? All these people are coward to always do what seems easy in the society. . And turns out, that its smart too. . It works for them. NOT FOR ME. . NOT IN THIS CASE :-@:-@ . . . . . . :'(
fUCK OFF. . Give it a BREAK :'( zzz. .
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