I'd been watchin a lot of frens* these days. . It works like a tranquilizer when m upset. And m on n overdose ever since i managed to copy all of it into my comp. . Piyush sent me key rings today. . It has our pictures in it. I was bit against its high price at first (at times i jus cant get help but find mistakes. . Disgusting) but now. . M likin it. There are reasons to it. . Piyu was really happy to know that i liked it, at the first place. And now. . M happy cause m thinkin bout us. Jus wonderin. . How easy it was if mummy was bit more acceptin bout most of the things, like this. How much pleasure it gives to 've urself accepted by someone.
I told piyush today that i wont accept him if he comes here without a divorce. And. . M jus not sure if v again depend on reetika and that helps in future. M pretty sure it wont. . But anyways. . Whatever happens v'll face it na. :'( i mean, ya. . . V'll. Mridul later said that its ok to go for a live-in. Cause that's all that matters. . . Then why dint i feel the same. Where's the love? Why m i scared now? Why m i not confidant. M not like this. I wasnt. I dunno why m i not able to judge him right. . Or Why m i tryin to judge him at all. To go by what i always believed in, once v r together. . Everythin'll b fine. And it sure will. I cant say how it'll work for reetika though. M too selfish to take any kinda risks here. And for the time being. . I've to tell the what i really feel. . And that is. . Piyush is hurting me :'(
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